As a man who has cerebral palsy, mental health issues and survivor of domestic violence it is hard to share my story. I used to be ashamed of who I was and who I had become, it was around 2013 that I became so depressed that life wasn’t worth living. My body wasn’t working correctly, I was slower than my peers and weaker. I wasn’t anything to write home about so I thought that maybe I needed to end my life… I would never have produce videos on Youtube prior to this nor would I had written about the struggles in my life for all of the public to view! This is an amateur blog but look forward to meeting new people on the web.
Life is tough with Cerebral Palsy but I still get around. Others in my own community don’t believe that I have problems because they can’t see them. I was lucky enough to get one of the best surgeons to do two surgeries to make it so I could walk while an adult. It took me some time to relearn to walk but now I am here. I can say I am about 50% weaker than most people my age, I can’t do general labor jobs because I am so slow and don’t have the energy that a normal 28-year-old person has. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night feeling as if I am completely numb because my muscles are so tense. My voice, it is hard to listen to in the videos as I voice over some of my youtube videos and find it hard to speak some days because of the strain.
Good news, I just graduated with my Bachelor’s degree and am searching for work as a guy with Cerebral Palsy, I have been active in the mental health community and am part of the board of a local non-profit that advocates for those with mental illness. We don’t have such a luxury of Cerebral Palsy advocacy networks in my community as it isn’t as funded, but I have reached out to other organizations. Some of my goals for this blog include a series of posts (A multipart series) of how I grew up with Cerebral Palsy and other tidbits. The sky is the limit, yet I don’t feel that limit coming over me. My next goal will be to figure out a way to speak up about everything going on.
– Tommi Asylum