A relationship of five months ended earlier than expected. Both of us were being toxic to each other. Every time I opened up more to her she pushed away and made me feel more and more like an outcast. I did the same when she opened up to me. Her family was so abusive to both of us and wouldn’t allow us to make our own minds up. She was finding her faith, yet it was okay for her family to dictate the kind of faith she had.
She had me believe she was pregnant only to tell me she was lying afterwards. She made me feel bad for it. She was only doing this to get my attention and probably to make me change. Her family had wanted me to become an LDS man and submit to their system. They hate me because I wear adult diapers for a condition I was born with. I have no choice, they are bigots. Her family is full of abuse and neglect towards herself and others. It changed my views of how “nice” the LDS church is. I have no issues with Mormons and love them, but the way “their” LDS values clashed with the ones the Elders were talking about to me were criminally different.
I am still going to explore the LDS faith more and look into the Book of Mormon but I guess my journey will be by myself instead of being told how I am not really good enough by a manipulative family. Maybe if they listened to the baby or the family who is currently 24 instead of belittling her choices in life, maybe she wouldn’t be so scared of commitment. I am pretty depressed about this.