I am trying to be the best person I possibly can be. Some how it is just getting to hard to do this,I am forgetting my friends and my own providers. I know this still has to do with the ECT but shit, when will it get better? I want my memory back and my friends back. Shit even my cats know something is up.I am trying to be the best person I can possible be, but at what point is that to much trying and like begging people to care about you? I want my life back they way it was before ECT. I want normal Ash Lee back!!!!!!!!!!!